We are Building It

For 40 years I did it alone. Throughout the years of my life the lines of progression can possibly look like heartbeat. Maybe that line of progression was that itself, the heartbeat to continue, to push through, to stay faithful and focused. I was derailed and down. I was lifted and celebrated. I was pleading and pained. I was awakened and waiting. I was it all. Through all I was with God. My-oh-my did He hear me! Even on the days I screamed aloud, where I thought he didn't hear me, he has continuously watched over me my entire life. He is my steadfast. I see him in every moment, sometimes it takes me longer to realize he was there all along. I am human. But He shows me clearly. Teaching me, guiding me, reminding me to rest on Him and him alone.

A newlywed, almost 2 years married; I’ve learned so much more about myself. Alone, I knew myself well. Alone, I figured out a lot! Alone, I handled it all! Alone, “I got it,” was the go-to! God blessed me with a partner that wants to be with me, learn with me, grow with me, and figure it out WITH me. 

I can’t say it’s all been easy. Truth is, God is always teaching me, aways asking me to step out of my comfort zone so that I may continue onto my purpose. He works with me and guides me each step. Marriage is possible, yes even at 40. I wasn’t even looking. Coming into a marriage as a stepmom to 3 teenage girls has been the most challenging part of my new life. Navigating through the waters of a blended family stepped up my game of obedience, patience and scripture.

God has called us together and that we are both sure of. It’s a beautiful feeling to overcome together. In the wins, the chases, the losses, and the struggles, my husband is standing right next to me. He is my strength when I think I have none left, the quiet calm, the man that gives me hope, the unconditional love. My husband seeks God to bring wisdom. A new life together is possible and we are building it. Hope, faith and love live here.